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i want to walk into the ocean and let it overcome me. i want to sleep and never wake up. i want to drink a glass of poison and succumb to it's powers. i want to move on to a world where there is no judgement, there is no pain. i am tired. i am tired and i cannot continue like this. i cannot put on a smile when there is nothing behind it. i cannot be your puppet. i can no longer hide behind the pain. i feel the eyes of judgement on me, and they are my own. they tell me nothing is good enough, nothing is right. and it is true. they tell me i cannot be strong enough to make it through this. they ask me what is left and my answer is nothing.